Damaged Brain

I have a terrible damage, I can not explain it , nothing in its place. I am suffering each time I try to connect with reality. My brain always hurts me and it needs to be fuel, I think about the thinking I am thinking about. This brain is too heavy that a human being can handle, if any other creature owned this thing, they would have threw it ages ago , and I need only to keep it in its normal state. I am taking some moments of rest from time to time, yet this damage is much more powerful than my own resistance. Sometimes I think I am on the way of losing this brain, but I keep laughing at this impression. I reached a situation of being laughed at, but I really do not care. Even if no one understands, I will live alone, and there only, I keep suffering from this pain away from any drama and attention. I know that this place does not fit my brain, I know that no one will get this mind thoughts, so I will keep writing in silence and at nights , and pretending to be okay in the mornings. This mind is full of devilish staffs that no one can ever imagine, the only thing that kept me away of supplying this world by them is that each time I feel dizzy and can not catch it. My mind ideas keep on turning and turning creating a circle and when they stop, this brain keeps on swinging left and right. All what I wrote now is a drop of water in an ocean of the real situation. It is okay if it is destined for it to live this life and in this place, just waiting death for real rest, and till that moment, I will keep reading and writing.

Written by - Iman Fede